This book paints the graphic and very disturbing picture of a little girl who is sexually abused by a 51 year old man. Only the bravest of readers should delve into the book due to the descriptions and content. Over 18 is a must for this book and even then, many readers may not be able to stomach this book.
What is unique about this memoir is how honest the author is about what occurred and her feelings about the abuse. While many books paint pedophiles as monsters, the author shows both the good and bad of Peter, the man who abused her. She shows how complex the feelings were by showing that Peter both loved her and manipulated her. After reading, I got the impression that Peter honestly loved Margaux but was just sick and inappropriate about how to show that love. As she grows up, he even begins to make her dress as a child because he is slowly losing interest in her. He needed help and lots of it. The little girl, Margaux, also has complex feelings as she begins to love Peter back despite expressing anger and hate towards some of the actions he requested of her. It’s interesting to compare the prologue to the afterward as it’s quite clear that writing this book helped the author heal and work through her awful abuse. I’m sure she went through catharsis in writing the memoir.
Nothing is white and black in this book which I appreciate. People who write about abuse without expressing the love/hate relationship the abused has with their abuser clearly do not have enough background knowledge to write such books. Many individuals will call this book controversial due to the mutual love displayed however I think it’s real. Real life happens and is not black and white but many shades of gray.